It's been a while...

Well well if it isn't July already. Looking back all these years I really do miss the times being with ALL my friends. However, friends betray, people change and a fickle heart is indeed the only constant in this world. There are of course many factors that actually lead all of us to where we are now. From being the most famous and biggest clique in OPSS, and now, we're all just wondering spirits, minding our own business, or even just living in the shadows of others. I had a dream, where all of us could sit together in a really huge round table with waiters serving us gourmet food and yeah alcohol and so forth. Some of us are even smoking. However, I knew at that moment we were all around our twenties already. In my dream, I felt so old, but I knew that all of us were having fun chatting and enjoying a nice meal - something that all of us haven't done it together for almost a year already. I mean joining this clique when I was thirteen, I've learnt many things from DC. The 'culture', the greetings and yeah. It's really kinda unique to me. For once, I never felt so loved and special among my friends. However, there are of course many ups and downs, but it's not like we'll ever get so serious with each other. The seriousness only starts when we're all Sec 3 I guess. I started to notice people who can get so fake and still have the cheek to smile, thinking they'll never get away with it. I'll love to tell them in their face, "FUCK YOU AND YOUR TWO FACES! _|_" but I know it won't be of any use anymore. It's too late to change anything. I guess this is it, for some of us it's our graduating year. Friends may come and go, but some will stay in our hearts until the day we die. I am no longer the Jun I used to be, the one who does really really crazy things, and laughing with my friends because I know they'll never judge me but right now, I'm rather quiet with some of them when they started to use me as a laughing stock, a joke. I might seem like a joke to all of you, but deep down I would love to punch all of you in the face, and we'll see whos the one laughing. Right now, I just want to say I'm done trying. Being with just a few friends who actually care about me is good enough. I have my family right here with me too. I really want to thank those who've been through thick and thin with me. I love you guys. :}

Back to being the old me.

Woke up in the morning today, feeling really down. Things aren't really going well lately. My grandma's condition is getting from bad to worse. It really hurts to see her suffer like that. I just hope she'll be fine soon after tomorrow's operation.

Anyways, I saw the same girl from Cineleisure today for the SECOND TIME. OMFG. Sighhhh. (: <3 Met her at the train station. I sat next to her in the train! I could still remember her wearing a blue and red and white checkered shirt with a white tank top in it. She was also wearing this blue skinny jeans and a really nice pair of black and hot pink shoes. What really shocked me was that she was a skater girl! Cool or what? She skates! Haha. Sighhhh, silly me. Why didn't I ask for her number. Unfortunately she alighted at Bishan. I was so sad. I really hope to see her once more. I will definitely take the chance to woo her! I swear I've never haven't had this strong feeling towards a girl for a long time already. ahahaha. I'm somewhat done. Bye.

Sigh. The good days are gone. The agony, hate, anger and sad incidents are just too much to be bottled up.

well well well, if it isn't July now. It's beeen forever since anyone blogged. Or even anyone remembers the straw hat pirates. Well, I do. Millions of shit changed since a year ago. The truth is that it's hard to give a shit about something you don't. God damn it just look at yourself dude. What have you accomplished these years? There's always gonna be bigger problems coming your way. Last night I had a very long heart to heart with a close friend of mine. She was, I had to say one of my really closest friend. She talked me out. Gave me some really darn great advices and I thank her for that. These few months I had been living in agony. Fortunately my friends had managed to bring me back to life. I felt lovely the next day. Seriously. I won't want to say what had caused me my great upsets these past few months cause it ain't anyone's fault. All I wish to say is that I've finally learnt a very important lesson. And it is to make a right choices in life. Be it your studies, family, food, friends, games, crews, girlfriends, boyfriends, the choice is yours. You can either choose to make wonders out of it or you can make a hell out of it.

Thanks guys, for being there for me. I know you all won't always be there for me. I'm still a young man. Still a long long way to go.

The dog days are over. Let's live a new life everybody.

Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

Do you memorize theatrical lines
that seem to lead them in
Play the role with the good girl heart
hide the tangled webs within
Who was it that led you on
that makes you want to hurt me so
Who do you want to forget
who forgot you long ago

Do you still feel him
calling in the air tonight?
Do you still feel it
Seems like you've done this before
You make breaking hearts look so easy
Seems like you've done this before
You've got breaking hearts all but down
and you've done this, you've done this before
You make stealing hearts look so easy
Where is the girl I adore?
You've got breaking up all but down
and I can't love a thief anymore

Do you collect the souls you've lost
in the top of your dresser drawer
Count the number of tears displaced
on lonely bedroom floors
Now the shape where your heart once was
slowly takes the place of you
Will they hold the memories now
of the love I thought I knew

Do you still feel him
calling in the air tonight?
Do you still feel it
Seems like you've done this before
You make breaking hearts look so easy
Seems like you've done this before
You've got breaking hearts all but down
And you've done this, you've done this before
You make stealing hearts look so easy
Where is the girl I adore?
You've got breaking up all but down
and I can't love a thief anymore

You make breaking hearts look so easy
You've got breaking hearts all but down
You make breaking hearts look so easy
Seems like you've done this before
You've got breaking hearts all but down
And you've done this, you've done this before

The best you could hope to be is,
Now just a bitter sweet memory
And you make breaking hearts look so easy